A complete nutcase in my life-changing.

Scoring 80% an above when I was in primary school, I felt great. I wasn't unhappy when I didn't get 100% on spellings. I simply banged with no absolute thinking when I did not know what was supposed to be.



When I entered middle school, I changed. I changed my pre-existing thoughts. I got upset when things became worst. But I did not blame myself for not doing good. I used to tell myself to work even harder on next time.



When I was in high school, I did not give a damn to anything. I changed tremendously. I tried to run whatever things seemed to be harder. Even little tiny things. I did not even care what my grades were.



When I found myself in college, I realized how important the grades were. I tried putting every single effort into my academics. Yes, I made it and able to transfer to Towson in the States.



Apparently, I am expecting too much from myself. When I get 80% out of 100%, I hate myself for so much. I almost bang my head against the wall, hardly. When I get 99% out of 100%, this is a total nutcase. I blame it on myself, pulling my face for days long. I get freaked out easily when things don't come to my ways. Put as simply as possible, I couldn't bring myself losing even one point! What is wrong with me?