Am I destined to be like this?

I am so so looking forward to seeing my family and friends in summer break. Unfortunately, when things are not the way you wanted, or looked for, you would totally get confused with where you are and whom you supposed to be now. This is totally happening on me at this point.

I have always been counted me as the unlucky ones, ever since my first step into the U.S. I m always being left behind people. I am working even harder to catch them up. When I manage to do that, another matter pops out of sudden. I hate this!

I am in trouble!! I have paid for my itinerary yet I come to realise that I am not supposed to leave in the U.S during summer break. I need to take some additional classes in an attempt not to affect the length of my graduation. Tell me what to do now. Cancel the itinerary, or transfer to another University? Put as simply as possible, this University sucks to the max. =(

Even I cancel it, there is no absolute guarantee that I could graduate within 1 year! Argh!!! Help me to get over this! I am so so so......... (It's just too heavy, suffocated). It's just too complicated to write all of these here. My mind keeps spinning right now. I have too much things to do up to this point.

P/S: Family and friends, please come to visit me if you were free. It would make me realise it is worth living in the U.S. =)

I wanna stop my degree.. and I would get nothing.. NOTHING!!