Sad Winter

Perhaps it is the last winter in my life. Maybe I am leaving on a jet plane one day to my home country. It means I will be leaving my baby and lovely friends here. I don't want to... but I really don't know what to do. One thing is for sure, I will try my best to stay as long as I could. I will cherish every single day I have, now and then because I really love them a lot. 

Or perhaps, I do not want to face the reality in Malaysia. I want to stay 21 forever. It is the best lifetime ever with the perfect moments in the States. The real life of mine after graduating is gonna be fucked up IF I go back to Malaysia! To be frank, I can't bear to leave my dearest friends and especially, my cutie baby! I have a very cute baby here. My forever baby. He will always stay in my heart, for REAL. 

p/s: I am afraid of losing someone that I really love. That kinda feeling is back to me again! SCARY!!! Yes, I am afraid of losing you. =)