People make mistakes always.

Things have not been going well recently. First of all, I have an F for one of my classes. He doesn't give me any room for negotiation or any chance to explain why I would do this. Not I am doing really bad for the class and quizzes, or my performance. I never miss or skip the class. But because of the big big mistake I have done at the end of the final, he fails me the ENTIRE course. This is not fair to me. He should not access such a heavy penalty on me by failing me the ENTIRE course. Yes, I fail for the entire course. From A to F now. Extremely sad.

I have been gone through some big challenges these days. The most scariest and unexpected part really happened on me just now. Well, perhaps many of you may not find it "cham" but I am in a very terrible condition now.

I accidentally cut my finger. And nobody was at home. After struggling, I finally managed to go to the Health Center on my own. I tried to press as hard as possible on my finger so that it could stop bleeding. Eventually, I had 8 stitches on my middle finger left hand ($300 usd). A really deep and long cut. Luckily, it was on my left hand because I have 2 finals tomorrow ( I am a right-handed person).

Sigh. It puzzles me a lot recently. I am not sure whether I have made a wrong decision to come over to the United States. It always happens many enexpected things in my life. I have had enough. I really have enough. More than enough. I hope everything is going to be over very soon. I really give up on my 2 coming finals. I am so not in a motivated mood. Unmotivated.

I really miss my family now. I hope they could negotiate with my professor. I wanna go home as soon as I possible. I really misssssss them so much. I am not going to anywhere during the winter break. I really need to take a good rest. Tired. Hope I could be someone else. Not Winnie anymore. But I know it sounds really impossible.

*Sweet*

I don't know what was going on yesterday, I was scolded, cursed, teased or whatever by 3 friends of mine by using the word "You suck, Winnie!!!" within one night (4 hours in the library, I received the same compliments - "You suck, Winnie!!!"). Oh , such a lovely compliment, I love you guys!!! *Sweet*

It becomes sweeter when the final is approaching. Apparently, my final starts on MONDAY! I will be the first one among my friends who take the final FIRST! Also, be the last one to finish the final! *Sweet*

Of course, I will have to stay in the library, probably for the whole night since the library is going to be opened for 24 hours. Then friends will start teasing me, scolding me, laughing at me. "You suck, Winnie!!!". Yes yes guys, I know I am.

Wish me luck, guys!!

Hello Kitty Cafe

Everything is in Taiwan. It makes me wanna go there!!!

Go there with EVA Air

Believe it or not

Perhaps some of you have found this! But I really like it very much. I would love to have a flight with EVA Air.

WHY? LOOK!!!!

EVA Air Airbus A330-200 in "Hello Kitty" livery

And, there is another more excited news!

Masquerade Ball

During the masquerade night, it was snowing and extremely cold out there. But still, everyone was wearing nicely to the ball.

Let's the pictures do the talking.

Nice masks. I really like those masks.

For selling, 7 dollars per each.

My housemate, Emma. We were waiting for the ball to start after having a thanksgiving dinner.

Couples on my both sides. Me and Cassandra trying to squeeze into their romantic world for that night.

Another picture with Emma. Hehe.. =P

I guess me and JK took many pictures during that night. But none of these pictures worked really well. Aduih. You can tell from the picture.

The only five Malaysians in Towson. How pathetic was that.

Don't you think his dress is nice? Haha.. Alex became the central of focus for that night.

Oh yea, finally the ball was over and of course, we continued our night in my apartment. Drinking!!!

Continue from the last entry

As I expected, I could not get into the most important class in my major and.. I am in the waiting list now. Haih. Also, I've got two of the worst professors in Towson University meaning, I will have a miserable life ever in Spring 2009. It is horrific. Worse comes to worst, I need to take Mass Comm Research in Summer 2009. The tuition fees is extremely, extremely, EXTREMELY expensive (USD $600 per credit). Total nearly $2000(USD) I need to pay for the class. Gosh! And it clashes with my internships if I were chosen by the company successfully. I am totally speechless......

On last Monday, my professor in the mass media and society class discussed about the violence of the media. I am not going to discuss here but did you know what movie did he ask us to watch and write a critical essay for that?

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Natural Born Killers

I don't dare to watch!!! Because after reading one of the articles, it says that a murderer in the U.S. killed his girlfriend after watching 10-20 times of the Natural Born Killer movie. It really scares me away from watching this movie but somehow, I need to complete the critical essay because I do not want do so many things during the Thanksgiving break. Don't you find it scary? This movie has an ENORMOUS impact on people who has watched it. I don't care whether the producer glorified violence acts or sensationalized scenes. I am so... SCARED. If you don't believe, you can try to google it.

This makes me to think of another issue. There is a book about the serial killer too if not mistaken. And one of the readers did exactly the same method that the author wrote about in the book. But this time, there was a hot debate about this case and the author said he did not write intentionally, however, this has indirect effects on people.

THEN, I read the latest headlines today on the Internet, and I saw this: "Cellar Father Faces Murder Charge".

"The Austrian father who allegedly imprisoned and abused his daughter for 24 years has been charged with murdering one of their seven children."

I am utterly speechless after having such a horrific long day with all of these. To pamper myself, I decided to watch Madagascar 2 and Role Models.

p/s: Should I go for Masquerate Ball?

It says the dress code for this is SEMI-FORMAL DRESS. But I think it is VERY formal from Malaysian's perspectives. Hahaha.. Or only from me?

Extremely worried!!!

I am so fucking freaking out after looking at my class schedules that I am going to enroll at 7.30 a.m. TOMORROW. It is okay to wake up early in the morning but what happens is that all the major classes I have chosen so far are currently FULLLLLLLL!! And whatever those major classes left are the classes with really BAD or WORST or APA NAZIS professors! God. And I am taking 16 credits in the next semester in order to graduate. And worst of all, next semester will be my LAST semester.

What happens if I couldn't get into one of those classes?!?!?!

A prevailing thought.

"The happiest people don't necessary have the best of everything".

Do you agree this statement? I do agree with this. As I grow up, I start to realize a person who has everything he or she wants is not the happiest person. In turn, people who lead an ordinary life have the happiest life after all. I ENVY them so much. At times, I even jealous of them.

I realize this when a friend of mine asked how many percentages of my life contained happy moments. I was stoned for a second. Obviously, I couldn't answer this. I bet you won't be able too because we are too busy competing with others while forgetting what is the meaning of "happiness". Everyone wants to be the winner. We compete most of the time. Are you dressing nicely for the male gaze or for becoming the winner in the eyes of women? Or are you dressing nicely and beautifully because you love yourself more than others do? I wonder.

I know all of us will face the same problem over and over again. We do not know what we want to do after graduating. So do I. I ain't complain too much for this but I really hope that I can do something that I really want. I want my life to be happier and at least, I won't feel sorry for myself. I wonder whether I really want to start a small business after graduating. I want to open a boutique. Even it is, I know this is hard to do so and I am sure my parents won't allow me to do this either. Because, they are the same. They are competing, but this time, they are competing with others as well as themselves. Everyone is selfish. We can't afford to lose everything that we have achieved. But one thing that I believe is that all of us will lose and gain bits and pieces in our lives at the same second. Don't you think so? I shall end here and I have no idea why I come out with this shit. I bet none of you will read it through. Simply, it is long and you will have corked eyes later on.

"I want to live with no regrets"

PhotoFunia Creations.

Supposedly I am revising my marketing midterms now but I just can't concentrate. I do not why. Perhaps I am on the way giving up Marketing. Then, I used PhotoFunia to poke fun of my pictures. Haha

By the way, I don't understand why my friends used "giggly" to describe me.

"Win, you are giggly".

Whatever. I don't care.

Here we go! PhotoFunia image creations!

Guess I have had enough fun. I gotta get back on track. Better don't give up on my midterms. (Better safe than sorry).
Bye Bye!

Bimbos

I used to say women who are pretty, materialistic, and love being attracted by the opposite sex are BIMBOS. They are real BIG BIG BIG ass bimbos yet unintelligent.

Guess what. I can't believe what I did to myself. I spend a large amount of money for this month. Mainly, clothing! Out of a sudden, I hate so much so much so of myself. Deep guilt starts tickling. Gosh!! I can't barely breathe now!

Feel myself better than nothing. Perhaps is even worse than those BIG ASS BIMBOS!

ROARSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!

Get myself drunk tonight in an attempt to forget all of these fucks.

Me and the old man

I know you will laugh out loud when you see this. By the way, enjoy your Halloween!

Haha! =P

Say Goodbye to The Monday Blues

Finally, I have done with all my designs and layouts for the print ads. I spend largely of my leisure times working on it. And it has yet to be the perfect ones. Sigh! Anyway, it is due tomorrow. I just want to get all of my shits over. Midterms, Assignments, and Ads.

My print ads. An alarm clock that has a programmable button and it vibrates.

Using a snooze button is a thing of the past, people!

Bye Bye.

Look What I Have Done.

This is when boredom drives me crazy. I supposed to create a print ads for my assignment. And yes, I open my photoshop but look what I have done. Laugh at myself. Lol.

Thoughts

Just came back from library. A 10 page assignment need to be done with no grammatical errors. Basically, I will stress out when I heard the word "no grammatical errors". For Americans, definitely, they have no problem with it. But for Asians, most will find it hard especially English is not their native language. =(

Usually, my professor will say "this is a typical Asian writing". BUT, it is good in some ways. Then I got D+ for my grammar. Wtf.

Next, I am still waiting for a reply from AAF, some kind of Advertising association in order to register The 52nd Annual Advertising Career Conference in NYC. Particularly, this is very important to me, in the future. Also, during this trip, I will pay a visit to the company for my future internship. But I am not sure whether I could go or not as I am still waiting for the reply from the AAF. FAN!! Why so many things need to be considered.

And by the way, please stop asking me to go Los Angeles and Las Vegas during winter break because I need to take a 100 level class during minimester and costs about $2000 USD. Mother f***er. This is terrible!

When boredom drives me crazy. I do not know why I uploaded this picture. Wanna say I have a really cute screensaver. Haha.

Give myself a break

I just came back from having supper with my girlfriends. We had laughters, and been talking about guys. We critiqued guys, basically. =P

During day time, I did lil' shopping. Without any realization, I spent almost $200 for the day. Guess what I have bought for myself. Haha.. Perfumes! Not because I need perfumes but it is some kind of temptations.

Cute, cute right? Hahaha.. I can't stop looking at them. The reason why getting for 2 perfumes was because I would get the bracelet and that not-so-good-looking bag ($90). And I got the smaller size of perfume was because I wanted to get another bracelet. Then, I paid another $25 with only 10ml in the bottle. How pathetic is that. I guess it is cheaper than in Malaysia.

Have a good night, guys. It smells really good for those perfumes! Really! And they are CUTEEE!

Spending money

How much would you spend to buy a blouse ? Anyone feels free to drop me a comment ? I really need to find out the ways of how girls, ladies and women spend their money on clothing!

What a relief!

Finally, I have received the confirmation letter from the Mass Communication department. So happy that I am officially a mass communication student now. I have been waiting for this to be happened on me! Happy!

My weekends

Michael Phelps, Katie Hoff and Jessica Long were in Towson to have a long parade of gold. Here are some pictures taken before I went to Atlantic City. They were totally right in front of my campus! Awesome. Guess, most of the locals, at least know where Towson is located through the mass media.

"Hometown heroes Michael Phelps, Katie Hoff honored on York Road".

And yes, on the same day, I went to Atlantic City which is located in New Jersey. It was such a long journey but it was worthwhile though.

Taj Mahal was the hotel where I stayed. There had a big casino inside the hotel too. Atlantic City is a hot spot for gambling, shopping and clubbing. It seems like a small city of Las Vegas. Pretty. Hopefully, I can go to Las Vegas one day. =(

The next day, I went shopping for sure!

The structural of building was really beautiful. It totally looked like a fantasy world. Guess many people would love this place.

And one more thing, I will try to update my blog often from now on. Have a good day, guys!