Fail to do everything.

There are always ups and downs in life. I thought coming over States means everything is fine, perfectly good in shape to me. I was wrong. First I came here, I was stopped to have chest Xray due to TB affection suspicious. I almost had heart attack once I received this. I did not even say this to my family. Stupidly, I thought my life was going to end as they gave me some real serious warnings. Thank God, the result was positive as I was clear to off. And my case was officially closed.

Secondly, I thought I was able to come to Towson means I was qualified, met all requirements because they did not reject my application. And guess what happened. Currently, I am not an official student of Towson University. Mainly because the department denied my application and I was not allowed to get in my major now. I do not know what to do now. I am lost. I was accepted by Towson University doesn't mean that I am accepted by Mass Communication department as well.

So please tell me what to do now. I feel like going back to Malaysia. However, I can't. We are no longer a kid, can do whatever we want to do. Things are not always happened in your expected ways. Again, why is it happened on me ? I wanna say how tired I am. But I know I have no rights to say that. Not even mention about it. I feel ashamed on myself now. Not being a good daughter, a good friend - never know what are appropriate and inappropriate behaviors, or actions to perform in any given situation.

I need someone to rely on, to share my moments, be it in joys or sorrows. At least once 'cause I am falling down..