Masquerade Ball

During the masquerade night, it was snowing and extremely cold out there. But still, everyone was wearing nicely to the ball.

Let's the pictures do the talking.

Nice masks. I really like those masks.

For selling, 7 dollars per each.

My housemate, Emma. We were waiting for the ball to start after having a thanksgiving dinner.

Couples on my both sides. Me and Cassandra trying to squeeze into their romantic world for that night.

Another picture with Emma. Hehe.. =P

I guess me and JK took many pictures during that night. But none of these pictures worked really well. Aduih. You can tell from the picture.

The only five Malaysians in Towson. How pathetic was that.

Don't you think his dress is nice? Haha.. Alex became the central of focus for that night.

Oh yea, finally the ball was over and of course, we continued our night in my apartment. Drinking!!!

Continue from the last entry

As I expected, I could not get into the most important class in my major and.. I am in the waiting list now. Haih. Also, I've got two of the worst professors in Towson University meaning, I will have a miserable life ever in Spring 2009. It is horrific. Worse comes to worst, I need to take Mass Comm Research in Summer 2009. The tuition fees is extremely, extremely, EXTREMELY expensive (USD $600 per credit). Total nearly $2000(USD) I need to pay for the class. Gosh! And it clashes with my internships if I were chosen by the company successfully. I am totally speechless......

On last Monday, my professor in the mass media and society class discussed about the violence of the media. I am not going to discuss here but did you know what movie did he ask us to watch and write a critical essay for that?

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Natural Born Killers

I don't dare to watch!!! Because after reading one of the articles, it says that a murderer in the U.S. killed his girlfriend after watching 10-20 times of the Natural Born Killer movie. It really scares me away from watching this movie but somehow, I need to complete the critical essay because I do not want do so many things during the Thanksgiving break. Don't you find it scary? This movie has an ENORMOUS impact on people who has watched it. I don't care whether the producer glorified violence acts or sensationalized scenes. I am so... SCARED. If you don't believe, you can try to google it.

This makes me to think of another issue. There is a book about the serial killer too if not mistaken. And one of the readers did exactly the same method that the author wrote about in the book. But this time, there was a hot debate about this case and the author said he did not write intentionally, however, this has indirect effects on people.

THEN, I read the latest headlines today on the Internet, and I saw this: "Cellar Father Faces Murder Charge".

"The Austrian father who allegedly imprisoned and abused his daughter for 24 years has been charged with murdering one of their seven children."

I am utterly speechless after having such a horrific long day with all of these. To pamper myself, I decided to watch Madagascar 2 and Role Models.

p/s: Should I go for Masquerate Ball?

It says the dress code for this is SEMI-FORMAL DRESS. But I think it is VERY formal from Malaysian's perspectives. Hahaha.. Or only from me?

Extremely worried!!!

I am so fucking freaking out after looking at my class schedules that I am going to enroll at 7.30 a.m. TOMORROW. It is okay to wake up early in the morning but what happens is that all the major classes I have chosen so far are currently FULLLLLLLL!! And whatever those major classes left are the classes with really BAD or WORST or APA NAZIS professors! God. And I am taking 16 credits in the next semester in order to graduate. And worst of all, next semester will be my LAST semester.

What happens if I couldn't get into one of those classes?!?!?!

A prevailing thought.

"The happiest people don't necessary have the best of everything".

Do you agree this statement? I do agree with this. As I grow up, I start to realize a person who has everything he or she wants is not the happiest person. In turn, people who lead an ordinary life have the happiest life after all. I ENVY them so much. At times, I even jealous of them.

I realize this when a friend of mine asked how many percentages of my life contained happy moments. I was stoned for a second. Obviously, I couldn't answer this. I bet you won't be able too because we are too busy competing with others while forgetting what is the meaning of "happiness". Everyone wants to be the winner. We compete most of the time. Are you dressing nicely for the male gaze or for becoming the winner in the eyes of women? Or are you dressing nicely and beautifully because you love yourself more than others do? I wonder.

I know all of us will face the same problem over and over again. We do not know what we want to do after graduating. So do I. I ain't complain too much for this but I really hope that I can do something that I really want. I want my life to be happier and at least, I won't feel sorry for myself. I wonder whether I really want to start a small business after graduating. I want to open a boutique. Even it is, I know this is hard to do so and I am sure my parents won't allow me to do this either. Because, they are the same. They are competing, but this time, they are competing with others as well as themselves. Everyone is selfish. We can't afford to lose everything that we have achieved. But one thing that I believe is that all of us will lose and gain bits and pieces in our lives at the same second. Don't you think so? I shall end here and I have no idea why I come out with this shit. I bet none of you will read it through. Simply, it is long and you will have corked eyes later on.

"I want to live with no regrets"

PhotoFunia Creations.

Supposedly I am revising my marketing midterms now but I just can't concentrate. I do not why. Perhaps I am on the way giving up Marketing. Then, I used PhotoFunia to poke fun of my pictures. Haha

By the way, I don't understand why my friends used "giggly" to describe me.

"Win, you are giggly".

Whatever. I don't care.

Here we go! PhotoFunia image creations!

Guess I have had enough fun. I gotta get back on track. Better don't give up on my midterms. (Better safe than sorry).
Bye Bye!

Bimbos

I used to say women who are pretty, materialistic, and love being attracted by the opposite sex are BIMBOS. They are real BIG BIG BIG ass bimbos yet unintelligent.

Guess what. I can't believe what I did to myself. I spend a large amount of money for this month. Mainly, clothing! Out of a sudden, I hate so much so much so of myself. Deep guilt starts tickling. Gosh!! I can't barely breathe now!

Feel myself better than nothing. Perhaps is even worse than those BIG ASS BIMBOS!

ROARSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!

Get myself drunk tonight in an attempt to forget all of these fucks.