My mind is in whirl =(

I check my mailbox regularly. I hope I can receive a confirmation letter as soon as possible. It makes me sick of waiting it. It makes me nerve-wrecking because I am the last one who has not received the confirmation letter yet. Please always help the last person. I am so far behind now. I do not want to stay another semester. Argh! Just want to get out of here!!! I do not want to stay here any longer. Help me!

Why I am the one who is always facing so much troubles and difficulties that are hard to deal with? I am miserably sick. So tired.

It would be so great if I could have a set of optimistic characteristics. Able to view problems differently. Able to take those problems as challenges, self- improvements and potential changes that can result you a better person.

Heaving a big sigh.

I had a big chunk of chocolate and vanilla bean ice-cream,
I had this really long chocolate bar,
I had a giant plate of sushi,
I had a "great" night with all my friend around,
I had many great laughters, I had joys, I had everything I supposed to...
yet something was missing.. deep inside my heart.

So what if I am the Chinese?

It is another yet dowdy day of work. An awful day begins.

Fall semester has started not long ago. I m taking Chinese 101 class. I thought it would be fun to be learning. Guess I am wrong again.

This morning, I was humiliated by the Chinese professor. Yes, we are learning the Beijing Chinese required a lot of tongue rollings and I am not expert on that. I admit that but so what? Argh!!!

"You are Chinese, you should do better than others. Why most Americans are better than you?" she said right in front of the class meanwhile forcing me to pronoun those designated Chinese words. (zh. ch. sh. r.) Roarrrrrsss!!!

So what if I am the Chinese who is not able to speak Chinese correctly.