Give Live Love

Questions:

How many of you know the feeling of being lonely?
How many of you know the feeling of homesick?
How many of you know the feeling of meeting deadlines?
How many of you know the feeling of living in the dark?
How many of you know the feeling of being drunk and why they wanna get drunk in the first place?
How many of you know the feeling of being rejected by somebody?
How many of you know the feeling of restless especially when you wanna get something/someone that you can't?
How many of you know the feeling of lack the encouragement to say out loud what your feeling is?

I met someone in my life, someone who was able to sweep the coldness of my life and bring the warmth into my life. Someone who had never created any fear or anxiety in my life. Guess that was what I got and deserved in my life. Therefore, should thank god of giving me a chance to feel, see and touch how beautiful my life was.

What will it be in the future?

I am so into fashion. Trends. Whatever. Supposedly doing my research papers but guess what. I come out with so many ideas.. but definitely not for my research papers but for... my fantasy princess world.

Now. Right now. I am hunting for jobs! I really hope I can have jobs in magazines company, ads agencies or things that have to do with trends, fashion!

At the same time, I hope I can set up a new business. A boutique maybe.

So people, hit me up before I am delving into it.

Kill all these dreams. Things that will never ever happen in my life!

In short, I just need a part time job!

Well, back to today's topic: What will it be in the future? I am referring to myself. My future..So lost..

Sounds and Sights in NYC

Notification: Specifically to Sumin.
"Hey girl, I hope you are still reading my blog. Just wanna tell ya how much I miss ya. I miss the times we used to spend together. Eating together, having the same classes together, studying together, hang-out together (still remember how we were in the fantasy world with your prince charming in your dreamed luxury car? Haha), and generally we were having so much fun together in college. Unfortunately, we never have a good chance to take picture together. Too bad. I m looking forward to seeing you in States. Who knows one day we will meet each other again in States" XOXO

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Hey peeps! These are the pics taken in NYC. Just went there during weekends.

Thanks for the support and encouragement from my family and friends. I will hold on no matter how hard it is. Huggies and loves to you guys! And I will try not to write the dark side of my life anymore.

Let's explore pictures of mine now! There you go;

Same old buddies in States.

When we just reached not long ago in NYC

Taken while waiting some friends of mine to get the unlimited one-day pass

These pictures taken when we were waiting for the ticket to get into the big ship to be able to see the statue of liberty

Next destination would be Manhattan!! Times Square. I truly love here. Hope I can get a job in the future here! YES! Right here. BUT of course, it seems impossible to me. The living cost there is TOO high to me. I just went there for a visit in New York, my money was gone like how fast the water gone from the tab!!!



I have been waiting this day to come! It's been long time I had had chinese food since few months ago! I truly miss "mamak stalls". Finally I could have one in Chinatown, NYC. The shop was crowded and the waiters seemed so impolite to us. Maybe they were too tired. SO so fierce!


Next would be random pictures taken in Times Square!!

I LOVE NEW YORK!!!!

Hmph, nothing much to write here. And I didn't do much shopping in Times Square but perhaps will go during Winter break and try to take as many pictures as I can and of course, SHOPPING! =P Sad enough to say that I am not be able to go back to Malaysia during winter break! And I have nowhere else to stay. Staying in my place right here have to pay 150 dollars every week! Oh god! =(

Feel myself just had a dream in my dreamland. My perfect times had gone in a blink of an eye. Now I am back to hell that is jam-packed with homework, assignments, proposals and readings!


I DO NOT LIKE THIS!!! =( Well, how many of you like this?

And one more thing





Haha, this is kinda funny but guys, did you know how much I spend on this drawing? I don't really like this drawing but the process of drawing was so so funny!!!

Let's just call it a day. I spent 20 dollars on this damn stupid thing. Sorry for imperfect entry here. Left so much space below here. Blame it on me as I am an illiterate computer and technology person. hahaha..

So mad to this entry. The more I upload pictures the more space I left below here. Can someone help me how to decrease it? Stupid me.

Did you ever wonder?

You know what, I just realised how much work I need to be done throughout fall semester. Incredibly, I would say I have never done so much work before. You can't imagine how much work I have. Well, in Malaysia, I have much work to do as well BUT not as much as THIS!

Ain't complain for having too much work here. BUT why students here don't give a damn to those homework that have been waiting for them to get done? Or am I being too stressed?Afraid of things can't be done imperfectly? Or they are taught to be like that since young? "Take everything easy?"

In any case, I just want to say how much pressure I have now! Not because of too much work to kill but we are required to do TEAM projects, major papers, proposals! I can't even discuss all these with them. Some said they need to work, some said they wouldn't be here for this weekend and things like that. So my question is "WHEN are we gonna get things done since everyone has a damn full schedule in their routine?

If continually, I will say I m gonna have heart attack soon. I sleep with all these problems pressed me deep inside my mind. My mind just can't help spinning round and round nervously. Yes. NERVOUSLY. I really am. I am so afraid that I can't take it anymore one day.

The only thing that holds me on is my family. My FAMILY!!!

The more I am stressed with my academics, the more I feel like going back at any seconds.

Back to the place I am comfortable with, home sweet home.

Miss you loads and loads. Of course, my friends as well!!!