Looking at a friend of mine, Nat,torn apart. Is painful. Knowing that he is hurt. A heart indeed afraid of breaking. Bear in mind that we must take everything as a process of growing up. I couldn't do anything besides standing next to him. It reflects of myself.
meanwhile, I would like to say "Cookie, try not to be so muka masam when things that I have mentioned in front of you are the things you do not like". Looking forward to meeting you and having fun together with you. Be happy with your life, Cookie H.
Auntie Sumin, I hope you would see my blog as you have told me that its been long time I have never updated my blog. Well, girl, I seriously do not know what to write in my entries. Sometimes I am too freaking emo. But anyway, I am happy to know you! Waiting for our very very last meeting in Kluang. Looking forward to having good times with you, and others. Thanks for helping me today. Willingly to listen my speech for so many times. Xinku le, Sumin ah yee. Come and study at the same Uni with me. I don't want to lost contact with you. Keep in touch always. I am so emo while listening to this 'Interlude'. So sad. =(
p/s: I know what Sumin wanna say to me. 'Sheng Jing Bin'!!! That's what I always received it from her.
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
I Love My Daddy.
There are times, I may even wonder whether my dad remembers all the childhood of mine that spending together with him?
"A big thank you for bringing so much joys in my early days, Dad".
Well, after reading Xiaxue's blog, it reminds me of my dad. Is awesome.
Yes. It reminds me loads of memories. My dad was the one teaching me about the philosophy of stars. He was the one always appearing in my mind when I was looking up to the starry nights.
And for aeroplanes and trains.
I remembered when I was little, I spent most of my time with my superb nice daddy. The figment of my imagination always popped up in my mind that I used to assume my daddy was actually my mummy. Well, this was definitely not true in reality. Simply because as I mentioned earlier, I had always spent my time with my daddy (24/7). He used to bring me to get the new stationary for times I needed it. He prepared the food to me, be it in breakfast, lunch or dinner. He used to bring me out after finishing my tuition for having supper. And weekends, we spent most of our moments in my grandma's house. He brought me to his friends' house or office for chit-chatting session.Generally, my daddy was my best friend ever.
And for sure, he is my superb beloved daddy now and then!
"I LOVE MY DADDY"
**Again,reminding me of others. "The Pursuit of Happiness" is a good recommendation movie to everyone. Even my dad says is nice to be watched!
"A big thank you for bringing so much joys in my early days, Dad".
Well, after reading Xiaxue's blog, it reminds me of my dad. Is awesome.
Yes. It reminds me loads of memories. My dad was the one teaching me about the philosophy of stars. He was the one always appearing in my mind when I was looking up to the starry nights.
And for aeroplanes and trains.
I remembered when I was little, I spent most of my time with my superb nice daddy. The figment of my imagination always popped up in my mind that I used to assume my daddy was actually my mummy. Well, this was definitely not true in reality. Simply because as I mentioned earlier, I had always spent my time with my daddy (24/7). He used to bring me to get the new stationary for times I needed it. He prepared the food to me, be it in breakfast, lunch or dinner. He used to bring me out after finishing my tuition for having supper. And weekends, we spent most of our moments in my grandma's house. He brought me to his friends' house or office for chit-chatting session.Generally, my daddy was my best friend ever.
And for sure, he is my superb beloved daddy now and then!
"I LOVE MY DADDY"
**Again,reminding me of others. "The Pursuit of Happiness" is a good recommendation movie to everyone. Even my dad says is nice to be watched!
Friday, June 15, 2007
Ordinary yet commendable
Comfort zone is violated. Everything seems beyond my control. But, there's always a girl for me to bitch on whenever I feel aimlessly. SHE is a simple girl like a girl next door to you. No more, no less. She seems pretty ordinary.
If I were asked to put down every single moments of us, sorry I couldn't. Instead, I would jot every little split second with her down, in one of the most simplest journal books which I could possibly get it from any bookstores that are just few blocks away from my house. I have definitely for no reasons why I would do that but simply because I do not want to slip all the flashes away from me, or leave it behind me.
She helps me whenever I do not know how to deal with my dilemmas, is just like I do not know how to react when the sizzling and blistering soup spill onto my body. It only causes injurious in reality.
A million of thanks to this girl. A simple and austere sentence it seems to be yet it truly displays a sincerity of mine towards you. =)
Be my forever friend. You have my word.
If I were asked to put down every single moments of us, sorry I couldn't. Instead, I would jot every little split second with her down, in one of the most simplest journal books which I could possibly get it from any bookstores that are just few blocks away from my house. I have definitely for no reasons why I would do that but simply because I do not want to slip all the flashes away from me, or leave it behind me.
She helps me whenever I do not know how to deal with my dilemmas, is just like I do not know how to react when the sizzling and blistering soup spill onto my body. It only causes injurious in reality.
A million of thanks to this girl. A simple and austere sentence it seems to be yet it truly displays a sincerity of mine towards you. =)
Be my forever friend. You have my word.
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Carpe Diem
I have always assumed that friendship is unnecessary. It has no survival value. Do not get me wrong,guys. Rather, friendship as it seems like to be one of the most important things in my life that can give me a strength and value to survive. Yes, without them, I can't survive.
Well, I have just gone out for farewell at T.G.I Friday's. Two friends of mine are going off to States real soon. To be honest, I'm quite sad as they are my true friends in college for these years. They are not only my partners for doing assignment of course. We are more likely to rock KL together. Generally, we truly have so much fun together in those times. Indeed, time flies. Time moves vastly in a rapid pace and is cruel enough to spilt every one of us into different path of our life. Today is the day where our very last fun moments come to the end. No laughter, no joys and no cares around anymore. There are just vanished in a few seconds ago like a blink of an eye. Is too fast to be catching. S.A.D. =(
A hug is worth a thousand words, a friend is worth even more!
Girls you will be missed.
p/s: I have 45 minutes presentation tomorrow and I need to force myself to sleep now!
To be continued ...
Well, I have just gone out for farewell at T.G.I Friday's. Two friends of mine are going off to States real soon. To be honest, I'm quite sad as they are my true friends in college for these years. They are not only my partners for doing assignment of course. We are more likely to rock KL together. Generally, we truly have so much fun together in those times. Indeed, time flies. Time moves vastly in a rapid pace and is cruel enough to spilt every one of us into different path of our life. Today is the day where our very last fun moments come to the end. No laughter, no joys and no cares around anymore. There are just vanished in a few seconds ago like a blink of an eye. Is too fast to be catching. S.A.D. =(
A hug is worth a thousand words, a friend is worth even more!
Girls you will be missed.
p/s: I have 45 minutes presentation tomorrow and I need to force myself to sleep now!
To be continued ...
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Amid Dumbos
When it comes to mentioning Batu Pahat, my mind would always ring me immediately on food. Nice food, nice people in a comfortable place with a very reasonable price of course and most importantly with a bunch of friends hanging out together.
So WELCOME to B.P.
Nah! Am not introduce my hometown here but is kind of missing it now. Human beings tend to behave oddly. Myself illustrates a good example. When I am back to my hometown, I feel like my life is dying faster as there is nothing for me to do except eating but when staying in KL, I feel like going back. Crazy, isn't it? But anyway, home sweet home.
"Cendol, Rojak, Nasi Lemak with Ayam, Maggie Gorreng with telur, Lontong, Laksa, Bak Kut Teh, Tang Yuan"
Hell no. I am freaking hungry with those food in my mind. =(
***
There are times I do not understand why certain people tend to calculate so much! And they are more likely to do things behind you. Perhaps, they are just too fascinated over it. Or maybe they feel contagious enthusiasm in themselves. Things as I mentioned just now is just a small slim matter. Unseen issue. Most people would not bother it so much. Undeniable, there are just SOME people care so much of it. At times, they would even take revenge on you. Taking revenge on someone isn't considered bad. But please think twice before you act. You might accuse wrongly. Inaccurate prediction may be happened. Well, to have better suggestion, I would just call them uncivilized people. It sounds a lil' too much. But this is me. I wouldn't give a damn. No fucking cares.
Uncivilized people, what goes around comes around. Don't you feel afraid when you spin your mind round and round with this? Think it over and over. Or you do not have any emotions like we do? Oh well, if that occurs, I can't help you and I feel so sorry.
Do not accuse me for nothing. You would regret for life. Absolutely
Get it? Dumbass
So WELCOME to B.P.
Nah! Am not introduce my hometown here but is kind of missing it now. Human beings tend to behave oddly. Myself illustrates a good example. When I am back to my hometown, I feel like my life is dying faster as there is nothing for me to do except eating but when staying in KL, I feel like going back. Crazy, isn't it? But anyway, home sweet home.
"Cendol, Rojak, Nasi Lemak with Ayam, Maggie Gorreng with telur, Lontong, Laksa, Bak Kut Teh, Tang Yuan"
Hell no. I am freaking hungry with those food in my mind. =(
***
There are times I do not understand why certain people tend to calculate so much! And they are more likely to do things behind you. Perhaps, they are just too fascinated over it. Or maybe they feel contagious enthusiasm in themselves. Things as I mentioned just now is just a small slim matter. Unseen issue. Most people would not bother it so much. Undeniable, there are just SOME people care so much of it. At times, they would even take revenge on you. Taking revenge on someone isn't considered bad. But please think twice before you act. You might accuse wrongly. Inaccurate prediction may be happened. Well, to have better suggestion, I would just call them uncivilized people. It sounds a lil' too much. But this is me. I wouldn't give a damn. No fucking cares.
Uncivilized people, what goes around comes around. Don't you feel afraid when you spin your mind round and round with this? Think it over and over. Or you do not have any emotions like we do? Oh well, if that occurs, I can't help you and I feel so sorry.
Do not accuse me for nothing. You would regret for life. Absolutely
Get it? Dumbass
End of Story
Friday, June 08, 2007
Living Creatures
Dating back to few days, I watched a really touching documentary which is called "War Photographer" by James Nachtwey. A picture undeniably speaks thousand words and tends to have its own unique. Amazing. A good recommendation to all of you.
Next, a memorandum is given.
"I would like you to give a message. Please do your best to tell the world that is happening to us, the children. So that other children don't have to pass through this violence." by Child Soldiers.
Simply to say, million of boys and girls around the world especially Africa and Asia are being forced to be soldiers (average at the age of 10) and basically they are suffering in combat. They have to sacrifice their childhood, lost family ties, lack of education and live in a very bad condition with a low supply of basic needs. Also, girls are particular in a risk of sexual harassment, abuse and rape.
I just can't help with it! Sadly enough to say all these. After delving myself into a line of investigation upon child soldiers, making myself realised how lucky am I living in a comfort zone with everything is perfectly. I shouldn't have complained so much about my stressful life (which is not considered as a stressful living at all) with always loads of assignments, presentations and things like that. I should feel myself lucky, ain't it?
Sigh.
Not forgetting, recently I have always been longing to noticing how masterfully this was done in John. F. Kennedy's well-known inaugural address:
"Ask not what you country can do for you- ask what you can do for your country"
Honest speaking, I have always asked regarding of whatever things from my daddy and mummy. I have never thought of what can I do for them in the future. I'm always being selfish of thinking what my future would be like for my own sake. I have never been sparing a thought for them and so forth. Yet, I tend to complain so much things that I do not like due to some ridiculous reasons to my parents. Tones of complaints! Am I crossing over my line again, again and again?
Yes, I am! =(
I should have learned how to be satisfied with my life now and then. No complaints, dummy! Argh! Just shouldn't do all these in my life. More pleasure less guilt, ain't it?
But then guilt starts growing instantly and one more thing..
Bad habits hard to die!!
I shall go for now. Good Night.
Monday, June 04, 2007
Am a kiddo
"Let go my pain"
"Wanna cry"
The sad song on. All by myself. Alone in the house again. The moment that I do not like the most as I could sense a feeling of down. Tears drop off instantly.
Well, I really am a tickle-minded girl. Sometimes I can be really bitchy. But at times not! I have been always wondering who am I in reality. Losing myself in the middle of nowhere. And nobody knows where am I. Only fuck knows.
Picture of my friends are always with me. Picture of you and family.. Never let it go. Ever. Not surprising if it's making me pain.
It pains in my heart. Undesirable pain.
Getting myself drunk is always the best way. The way to let go my pain, aint it ?
Again, who knows? who cares?
NOBODY!
Quote: "The heart has reasons that reason does not understand".
"Wanna cry"
The sad song on. All by myself. Alone in the house again. The moment that I do not like the most as I could sense a feeling of down. Tears drop off instantly.
Well, I really am a tickle-minded girl. Sometimes I can be really bitchy. But at times not! I have been always wondering who am I in reality. Losing myself in the middle of nowhere. And nobody knows where am I. Only fuck knows.
Picture of my friends are always with me. Picture of you and family.. Never let it go. Ever. Not surprising if it's making me pain.
It pains in my heart. Undesirable pain.
Getting myself drunk is always the best way. The way to let go my pain, aint it ?
Again, who knows? who cares?
NOBODY!
Quote: "The heart has reasons that reason does not understand".
Sunday, June 03, 2007
Memoirs
I Will Remember You (by Sarah McLachlan, Seamus Egan, and Dave Merenda)
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard
But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories
*** I am always afraid of being forgotten. Or maybe afraid to be lonely? Do not ask me why. Grabbing times I have with my friends around me. To have funs, joys, cares... and of course being loved by my friends. (Eeeww, stop dreaming) ***
It sounds pathetic uh? There are times I seriously do not know how to encode my thoughts into words. It's hard. And I think.. Song would be the best way to express, isn't it?
To be continued...
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard
But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories
*** I am always afraid of being forgotten. Or maybe afraid to be lonely? Do not ask me why. Grabbing times I have with my friends around me. To have funs, joys, cares... and of course being loved by my friends. (Eeeww, stop dreaming) ***
It sounds pathetic uh? There are times I seriously do not know how to encode my thoughts into words. It's hard. And I think.. Song would be the best way to express, isn't it?
To be continued...
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